Connect

Walking through my pain today
Not sure if it is pain I feel
Awoke with a start
From a kind of recurring dream
My heavenly father
Always supporting
And lifting me up
Would not look me in the eye
Bringing me down to the dirt
Seeing a similar vein in life now
I find it difficult to connect to
What I cannot trust
Disconnect, wires cross
Lights go off
Gone to my happy place
Walking to the zen
Something told me
Do not disconnect
But connect
Again my dichotomy
How to unplug from what I don’t want
And feel that other part

Ok so during my dream
I was peeing for what seemed like
Forever
Sometimes I pee the bed when this happens
Then I had the heavenly father moment
And awoke, thank you father
Is that what we are calling it
To protect the innocence
Today only
Surprised that my bed wasn’t wet
Too much information I know
Sorry about that
Not really

Something else strange
In my dream
Mother was calling to tell me
Should I move the jewels so they don’t get wet
From the rain
I told her it was okay, they would stay dry
Did not occur to me to ask her if
They were getting rained on
Until I woke up
Sometimes we have to wake up
To accept the truth
To hear what we need to hear
To gain a perspective
To ask the relevant questions

A quote for the day:

“A mind too active is no mind at all.”

Theodore Roethke (1908-1963)