Thursday, June 6, 2013

Losses

This has been a shitty couple of weeks. First the step-dad dies of a heart attack. A day and a half later our dear friend Jeff dies of a heart attack. On Saturday I had to put my 19 year old cat Sebastian to sleep and this morning I found our resident neighborhood cat Wheels dead on the side of the road. Someone suggested that I roast some clove and cleanse my house. I don't necessarily want to be rid of the spirits, just the bad death vibe. Starting to work on a new project. Will write more once it is up and running....

Friday, March 2, 2012

Pissing Rain

I especially love it
when someone is pissing on
my feet
and telling me it is
Rain

Not

Blinders on to the masses
Incredible
why we won't see what is
in front of our faces

If it doesn't pass the smell
test
it is rotten, not true
say I
and others

With common sense

Ten Words Project

3/25/11

Breathing, quiet
Trying to maintain my
Focus
Shut the world out
Be part of the plan
I toil and grind
They want to keep me hungry and
Stupid
That is the truth
In my mind’s eye
Is a different reality
No medal will be given for my
Dreams
My bravery will set me free
The hour is now - to
Step into the fiery flame
And emerge unscathed
Ok a little bit
Scandalized
A stir does not
Worry me
Mystify, sanctify
Clarify my destiny
Words from Glo-ria
Circling in my mind
Round and round
I have been complicit
In my unhappiness
I agree to be quiet and
Be a yes she-man
Bobble head
Fuck you with every bow
Yes she man ma’am
Fuck you
Anyhoo, I digress
My challenge
Same as ever
Be the one to inspire
Me
It starts at home my dearie
Listen and learn
For once

3/28/11
Garden
refuse
wine
liberty
commitment
hovering
salvage
shoreline
effective
dismay

I reflect quietly on the garden that is
My life
Dismayed and amused at what has become
Salvaged by the skin of my teeth
Hovering somewhere in between
Still trying to decide
Whether or not to
Fly
My indecision, my commitment, has been effective
Under the radar
Enjoying the view and my wine
From the shoreline
I don’t like cold water anyway
However
I refuse to believe that
This
Is all there is
Like my Lily I am still growing
My wings
Still reflecting
What was it that I wanted the most
My freedom
Liberty

3/28/11

Roll
Ask
Acquire
Give
Submit
Forgive
Listen
Fillet
Mask
flame

I sit like the fat cat
Enjoying my spoils
Licking my fingers
Living the give me life
The rolls on my bloated body
Remind me that I have acquired
More than wealth
I cower behind my mask
Darting to and fro
Never bothering to ask
Why
Filleting my guts for all the world
To see
I submit to thee
Quiet for just one moment
Listen
Focus on the flame
And I forgive you
If it happens again

4/8/11

wild, technology, found, reply, boredom, eccentric, knight, quality, tend, slope

Ok you wild child
Turn off your toys
Eschew your technology
The silence will not kill you
For no one ever died of
Boredom
In my mind’s eye
The sexy eccentric knight
With long flowing hair
Rushes in like a hurricane
To whisk me away
On his black horse
Of course
No need for envy or lust or greed
For I have found my prince
Straight into the wind
No bowing out now my friend
It’s a slippery slope one travails
When you get what you ask for
Careful now, you might just get it
Wink wink, the law of the universe
Is in your face
Careful now
What you do unto others
Has already been done
To you
Tend to your own garden
My dear
It will bring you riches
Beyond your imagination
The quality of your desire
Will become clear
Steady hum beneath all that exists
No need for a reply
It always listens
And responds
You asked and you shall receive
Ready or not
Here I come


5/2/11

Normal, sweet, after, wisdom, alone, growth, release, energy, crack, hear

I skip along gaily
The bright white heat in my heart
Burns a hole
Yearning
Hungering
Learning to be free

Circle of life
My destiny
Thy will be done
My quest to be
So called
Normal
Turned on its head
From the very
Beginning

Question from the start
No right or wrong
Which way to branch out
Stop
Look
Listen
Create what you feel
Follow the light
See where it leads you
That is the lesson
It is the journey not
The destination

October 26, 2011

Normal, sweet, after, wisdom, alone, growth, release, energy, crack, hear

My façade cracks away
Like the skin on hands
Peeling back the old layers

On a mission to truth these days
No more papa can you hear me
Or mama for that matter
Searching for my wisdom
That lies beneath
My skin

Just energy
Wrapped in this beautiful package
Yearning for growth at every turn
And running at the same time

What is normal anyway
Turns out it comes in many forms
Trust that instinct little darling

Some days I feel alone
Not lonely, ok maybe a little bit
Lonely
Knowing that the sweet spot will come
My job is to listen
And learn

My spirit is experiencing a growth spurt
Growing pains at the moment
I won't even realize until
Afterwards
That the demons have been released

October 28, 2011

fondle, ricochet, caustic, bide, essence, juicy, godspeed, impervious, nebulous, perspire

I Bide my time
Until the eventual reality
Of my essence reveals
Its true nature and course

My caustic façade
Has made me impervious
To the nonsense and nebulous desires
That others seem to throw my way

Setting the course
That only I can see
In my mind's eye
Godspeed

Filled with juicy bits and fodder
Beyond my wildest dreams
Live your best life
Fondle the soul

The possibilities make me perspire
Sweat
The great unknown

To paraphrase:
No one is telling you
It’s a set up until you’re fed up

People trap your mind
It’s so hard to find…

These crazy thoughts
Are dancing around like atoms
On fire
Richoteting off the walls of
My so called mind

November 10, 2011

Fracture, harmony, constant, building, normal, shepherd, laugh,
fog, eye, flower

I peer through my
Fractured crystal ball
Catching a glimpse
Through the fog

I see my mind's eye
Smelling the flowers
Shepherded along my craggy path
Constant hum

My so called normal life
Laugh out loud
You queer little beast
Didn't see this one coming

The building blocks
Set in sandstone
Harmonious blend
tea and honey

December 2, 2011

Magic
Believe
Trust
Power
Force
Coincidence
Thought
Provoke
Friend
Energy

Listen up my friends
I have a little story that
The universe has asked me to pass along To you

Things that make you go hmmmm
Surely are not a coincidence
Its starts with a flick, then a thud, then a whack And smack -
you've got it my friend

Endless energy
Power beyond your imagination
Or within
Which is it - that's for you to decide

Careful with what you believe
It will come around to say hello
Again
And again

Thought like a seed
Plant and grow
Reeping your reward
Give and take

Like magic
Snake oil salesman
Do not provoke the
Gods

Swirling, rolling, seeping
Believe in the power
Trust in its existence
May the force be with you

February 2 , 2012

jurisdiction, clarity, jeopardy, scorch, acclaim, conspiracy,
gravity, interim, assure, heresy

Circling like a shark
Trying to find a way out of my jurisdiction
Jurisprudence eh
The gravity of my situation requires me to seek beyond
These four walls
Surely a heresy say
The mighty and numerous many
Surely it must be a
Conspiracy
Blinders on
Round and round
Assuring tones and scorching daggers
In my rear
The one true jeopardy Is a lack of clarity and
Earplugs
In the interim I shall play the little game
Nodding yes master, yes
Bestowing your acclaim amid the chaos
As I ascend great
and mighty mountains, ok hills
On my quest for clarity and freedom

February 21, 2011

Grandiose, powerful, mighty, pertain, lovely, cloud, bud, drink,
smile, night

Watching the lazy clouds pass
I think, now is the time
For the grandiose dreams to become
Reality

I drink in my newfound enthusiasm
Smile, and....
Wait
Oh yeah, I am supposed to be
Doing something

Spring is in the air
Preparations are underway
The buds have popped
On the cusp
Of something
Mighty and lovely

If memory serves
I recall a painting
Of night and stars
Brings a smile
And I drink from my goblet
Of red wine

My ramblings pertain not
To a specific genre
Learned a new and powerful word
Manifestation
To the nth degree
It cannot be lived if it cannot be
Imagined

Monday, May 16, 2011

Stream of Rambling-ness

Sometimes life can bring you
Down to your knees
Nothing to do but
Keep your head up and breathe

Begging please
Pleading for a way
To make the pain go away

So stand on your feet
Brush off your wounds
Just look up and say
Thank you for this gift today

Wake up and say
I’m on my way
Step into the pain
Don’t let it get in your way

Stand by your word
It speaks for itself
No one can bring you down
So turn around and walk on

I always knew that inside
I had what it takes to make it
I knew I would get there someday
Hold on, baby, everythings
Gonna be all right

Used to hiding my face
Gotta have me to myself
I can’t have me close enough
Learning who it is
Behind my mask

Watching the rain
Washing away the pain
It’s a new day
Not looking back
It would be so unfair
To deny that place and time
Hold on and go on
Walk through the flames
Doing it anyway
If you dare you can fly
Just get to know
Let it take over
Dream a little dream

Unlock the chains
And set him free
Star of the show
Not just a pretty face
Steppin out of the dark
On into the light
Having what it takes

Hold on
No matter how long
Faith got me through the years
Praying to get by

Ten More

Know, good, time, heart, really, reach, deep, twisted, meander, step

Not just another pretty face
Stepping out of the dark
And into the frying pan

On my way
Who knows where
Reaching deep

On this twisted and
Meandering road
The question is

I don’t know how
Nobody’s perfect
Side step

Jumping in the face
Of common sense
I have none

Know in my heart
Not a question
Of sense

I just know it
Always had the sense
Uncommon

Good or bad
Careful what you ask
It’s already been answered

Everybody’s got to do it
Work your own way through it
C’est la vie

That’s how it’s gonna be
Hold tight
It’s gonna be a bumpy ride

A really bumpy ride
I was just looking for a
Good time

Ten Words - Multiple posts

Breathing, quiet
Trying to maintain my
Focus
Shut the world out
Be part of the plan
I toil and grind
They want to keep me hungry and
Stupid
That is the truth
In my mind’s eye
Is a different reality
No medal will be given for my
Dreams
My bravery will set me free
The hour is now - to
Step into the fiery flame
And emerge unscathed
Ok a little bit
Scandalized
A stir does not
Worry me
Mystify, sanctify
Clarify my destiny
Words from Glo-ria
Circling in my mind
Round and round
I have been complicit
In my unhappiness
I agree to be quiet and
Be a yes she-man
Bobble head
Fuck you with every bow
Yes she man ma’am
Fuck you
Anyhoo, I digress
My challenge
Same as ever
Be the one to inspire
Me
It starts at home my dearie
Listen and learn
For once


Garden
refuse
wine
liberty
commitment
hovering
salvage
shoreline
effective
dismay

I reflect quietly on the garden that is
My life
Dismayed and amused at what has become
Salvaged by the skin of my teeth
Hovering somewhere in between
Still trying to decide
Whether or not to
Fly
My indecision, my commitment, has been effective
Under the radar
Enjoying the view and my wine
From the shoreline
I don’t like cold water anyway
However
I refuse to believe that
This
Is all there is
Like my Lily I am still growing
My wings
Still reflecting
What was it that I wanted the most
My freedom
Liberty



Roll
Ask
Acquire
Give
Submit
Forgive
Listen
Fillet
Mask
flame

I sit like the fat cat
Enjoying my spoils
Licking my fingers
Living the give me life
The rolls on my bloated body
Remind me that I have acquired
More than wealth
I cower behind my mask
Darting to and fro
Never bothering to ask
Why
Filleting my guts for all the world
To see
I submit to thee
Quiet for just one moment
Listen
Focus on the flame
And I forgive you
If it happens again

4/8/11

wild, technology, found, reply, boredom, eccentric, knight, quality, tend, slope

Ok you wild child
Turn off your toys
Eschew your technology
The silence will not kill you
For no one ever died of
Boredom
In my mind’s eye
The sexy eccentric knight
With long flowing hair
Rushes in like a hurricane
To whisk me away
On his black horse
Of course
No need for envy or lust or greed
For I have found my prince
Straight into the wind
No bowing out now my friend
It’s a slippery slope one travails
When you get what you ask for
Careful now, you might just get it
Wink wink, the law of the universe
Is in your face
Careful now
What you do unto others
Has already been done
To you
Tend to your own garden
My dear
It will bring you riches
Beyond your imagination
The quality of your desire
Will become clear
Steady hum beneath all that exists
No need for a reply
It always listens
And responds
You asked and you shall receive
Ready or not
Here I come

Next ten: normal, white, heart, hunger, circle, create, right, branch, skip, hole



I skip along gaily
The bright white heat in my heart
Burns a hole
Yearning
Hungering
Learning to be free

Circle of life
My destiny
Thy will be done
My quest to be
So called
Normal
Turned on its head
From the very
Beginning

Question from the start
No right or wrong
Which way to branch out
Stop
Look
Listen
Create what you feel
Follow the light
See where it leads you
That is the lesson
It is the journey not
The destination

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Ten words

So ten words…Fuck, mine, grass, drunk, grateful, weary, broke, ball, hole, head

Interesting combination of words
Swimming around in my head
Sitting here I feel the void in my hole
An aching, longing, yearning in my balls
Been too long to experience
A mindless fuck

Weary and drunk
From dealing with other’s problems
Grateful they are not my own
Mine I can deal with believe me
Being broke is a matter of mind
Over matter

Rich beyond words in my heart
And free too
A head trip one has to believe
Or you are caught in the game
It is only an illusion

Feeling like a dog
Rubbing my ass on the
Grass
Rubbing the shit away
Run into the light