A goal without a plan is just a wish. Antoine de Saint-Exupery (1900-1944)
No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted. Aesop (620 BC-560 BC)
Not knocking my head against the wall today
What a relief
My aching head
Walking a fine line here and now
I have given all that I can to that cause
It is not my problem
Here is my line in the sand
No need to share
I know it
When it is crossed
There will be
No going back
We all make our choices
Made out of guilt shame loyalty
Obligation
My favorite word
Choice should be about
What is best for you
I cannot presume to tell
But this I know
Living a life for another’s benefit
Is not a life lived
For anyone’s benefit
Live, breathe, free
Do not allow anything to pass your lips that you are not
certain is completely true.
One must stand guard even against
something which only hints at
deception or ambiguity —
including lies that are not
specifically said and mistaken
assumptions which one leads people to make.
One must continue to exercise caution
until one’s eyes are opened
and one sees the beauty of truth.
Cheshbon HaNefesh
Gratitude
Awaken to the good and give thanks !
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Spin me around
Trying to join the party today
I’m not exactly the life
When I don’t want to be
Enjoyed my friend last night
Made me laugh
I could be myself
Listening to Rosie this morning
And every morning
Reminds me so much of Keith
Spin spin spin
Loving everyone
Connecting
Trying to figure out what to do
No skills, no talent … poor me
Feeling trapped by this daily
Grind
Definitely no longer suits me
If it ever did
Word of the Day:
Maugre
Meaning
Archaic: in spite of
I’m not exactly the life
When I don’t want to be
Enjoyed my friend last night
Made me laugh
I could be myself
Listening to Rosie this morning
And every morning
Reminds me so much of Keith
Spin spin spin
Loving everyone
Connecting
Trying to figure out what to do
No skills, no talent … poor me
Feeling trapped by this daily
Grind
Definitely no longer suits me
If it ever did
Word of the Day:
Maugre
Meaning
Archaic: in spite of
Connect
Walking through my pain today
Not sure if it is pain I feel
Awoke with a start
From a kind of recurring dream
My heavenly father
Always supporting
And lifting me up
Would not look me in the eye
Bringing me down to the dirt
Seeing a similar vein in life now
I find it difficult to connect to
What I cannot trust
Disconnect, wires cross
Lights go off
Gone to my happy place
Walking to the zen
Something told me
Do not disconnect
But connect
Again my dichotomy
How to unplug from what I don’t want
And feel that other part
Ok so during my dream
I was peeing for what seemed like
Forever
Sometimes I pee the bed when this happens
Then I had the heavenly father moment
And awoke, thank you father
Is that what we are calling it
To protect the innocence
Today only
Surprised that my bed wasn’t wet
Too much information I know
Sorry about that
Not really
Something else strange
In my dream
Mother was calling to tell me
Should I move the jewels so they don’t get wet
From the rain
I told her it was okay, they would stay dry
Did not occur to me to ask her if
They were getting rained on
Until I woke up
Sometimes we have to wake up
To accept the truth
To hear what we need to hear
To gain a perspective
To ask the relevant questions
A quote for the day:
“A mind too active is no mind at all.”
Theodore Roethke (1908-1963)
Not sure if it is pain I feel
Awoke with a start
From a kind of recurring dream
My heavenly father
Always supporting
And lifting me up
Would not look me in the eye
Bringing me down to the dirt
Seeing a similar vein in life now
I find it difficult to connect to
What I cannot trust
Disconnect, wires cross
Lights go off
Gone to my happy place
Walking to the zen
Something told me
Do not disconnect
But connect
Again my dichotomy
How to unplug from what I don’t want
And feel that other part
Ok so during my dream
I was peeing for what seemed like
Forever
Sometimes I pee the bed when this happens
Then I had the heavenly father moment
And awoke, thank you father
Is that what we are calling it
To protect the innocence
Today only
Surprised that my bed wasn’t wet
Too much information I know
Sorry about that
Not really
Something else strange
In my dream
Mother was calling to tell me
Should I move the jewels so they don’t get wet
From the rain
I told her it was okay, they would stay dry
Did not occur to me to ask her if
They were getting rained on
Until I woke up
Sometimes we have to wake up
To accept the truth
To hear what we need to hear
To gain a perspective
To ask the relevant questions
A quote for the day:
“A mind too active is no mind at all.”
Theodore Roethke (1908-1963)
Manifest
I know that I live in a world
Not altogether real
But to me it is
It was pointed out
Manifestation creates
Do not deny
Dancing in the fairy dust
Flying with my head
In the clouds
Is easier
Unsure where to land
With my feet on the ground
The question has always been the same
Why do I have to land
What is the point of
Being
A part of something
I am not
Have always been told
You are different
You are the special one
Trying to believe
Not holding on
Wildflowers don’t care where they grow
She told herself
I will not be denied
So many truths
Taken as my own
Corralling
My random thoughts
Not an easy task
As easy as it seems
I will not turn away
Not altogether real
But to me it is
It was pointed out
Manifestation creates
Do not deny
Dancing in the fairy dust
Flying with my head
In the clouds
Is easier
Unsure where to land
With my feet on the ground
The question has always been the same
Why do I have to land
What is the point of
Being
A part of something
I am not
Have always been told
You are different
You are the special one
Trying to believe
Not holding on
Wildflowers don’t care where they grow
She told herself
I will not be denied
So many truths
Taken as my own
Corralling
My random thoughts
Not an easy task
As easy as it seems
I will not turn away
Ten words
Deny, gift, always, lover, pretend, sleep, mind, flutter, promise, intend
Given these times
It is not my intention to
Deny
The gift I give to myself
A promise
Not to pretend
Always on my mind
Tell me lover
Where are we today
Eyes wide open, fluttering heart
I am aliveMy mind will not sleep
Given these times
It is not my intention to
Deny
The gift I give to myself
A promise
Not to pretend
Always on my mind
Tell me lover
Where are we today
Eyes wide open, fluttering heart
I am aliveMy mind will not sleep
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Abriendo Puertas
Realizing my own dichotomy today
Not loving certain people
Yet owning my statement
There are different ways to live in this world
Just wish they were not so much
Themselves
Probably true about me as well
Not my question to ponder
Little Napoleon is hounding me again
Want to tell my truth
In spite of my nose
Looking for the newspaper
To bat the yapping dog
Everywhere I turn
My aching head
From the stinky lady
Pretty and smart
Classy in a different world
Not better only different
But stinky nonetheless
Able to look myself in the eye today
Staying with my goal
Or trying
Up up and up
Abriendo puertas
Always
Not loving certain people
Yet owning my statement
There are different ways to live in this world
Just wish they were not so much
Themselves
Probably true about me as well
Not my question to ponder
Little Napoleon is hounding me again
Want to tell my truth
In spite of my nose
Looking for the newspaper
To bat the yapping dog
Everywhere I turn
My aching head
From the stinky lady
Pretty and smart
Classy in a different world
Not better only different
But stinky nonetheless
Able to look myself in the eye today
Staying with my goal
Or trying
Up up and up
Abriendo puertas
Always
Always
Given these times
It is not my intention to
Deny
The gift I give to myself
A promise
Not to pretend
Always on my mind
Tell me lover
Where are we today
Eyes wide open, fluttering heart
I am alive
My mind will not sleep
Sometimes what we get
Is not
what we intend
But somehow
Always
Real
It is not my intention to
Deny
The gift I give to myself
A promise
Not to pretend
Always on my mind
Tell me lover
Where are we today
Eyes wide open, fluttering heart
I am alive
My mind will not sleep
Sometimes what we get
Is not
what we intend
But somehow
Always
Real
Monday, November 2, 2009
Finishing what we started...
Looking through my rose colored glasses
Deciphering the code
Understanding the tale
There are many ways
To travel through life
To live in the world
Gauging my perspective
Not judging right or wrong
Just one of those things
Lyrics are running through my mind
Trying to understand
What is coming to me
Can’t get my head around it
I need to think about it
Things that used to get you down
Now have no effect at all
Remembering the very first time
I want to go back to then
Got to figure out how got to remember when
I felt it
Looking forward to feel it again
I remember when
You were my friend
I fell to my knees
I didn’t know why
I need a reminder
So I can remain
Deciphering the code
Understanding the tale
There are many ways
To travel through life
To live in the world
Gauging my perspective
Not judging right or wrong
Just one of those things
Lyrics are running through my mind
Trying to understand
What is coming to me
Can’t get my head around it
I need to think about it
Things that used to get you down
Now have no effect at all
Remembering the very first time
I want to go back to then
Got to figure out how got to remember when
I felt it
Looking forward to feel it again
I remember when
You were my friend
I fell to my knees
I didn’t know why
I need a reminder
So I can remain
Illusion
Trying to express myself through a song lyric, Nobody Knows Me by Madonna.
No ones telling you how to live your lifeBut it's a setup until you're fed upThis world is not so kindPeople trap your mindIt's so hard to findSomeone to admire
No ones telling you how to live your lifeBut it's a setup until you're fed upIt's no good when you're misunderstoodBut why should I care?What the world thinks of meWon't let a strangerGive me a social disease
From her perspective it seems like she is talking as a famous person and people only know her public persona and automatically assume certain things about her. For me what the song is saying is that the world puts a lot of demands on people and how it expects people to behave. She is saying I don’t want your social disease, this idea that everyone has to be a certain way. That what everyone is saying to you or in the media is a bunch of lies. People trap your mind, it’s a set up until you’re fed up. No one’s telling you how to live your life, but it’s a set up. No one is going to tell you how to live your life one way or the other, good or bad. It’s a setup – meaning it is all set up that you have to live your life in a certain way because that is how it is done, how everyone else does it. People trap your mind with this ideal and it is hard to find someone who is not in that trap, not living the lie. Once you are fed up, you stop living your life according to that ideal and then it all goes to shit. You are misunderstood and the damage is done. It is an illusion but you don’t know it until you have gone through it and out the other side. It is about standing up and saying that you are living your life on your own terms and you won’t let anyone give you that social disease of having to live your life in that certain way. Once you realize the illusion you can see that that life is now dead and you are moving on to another life – closer to the light/sky.
No ones telling you how to live your lifeBut it's a setup until you're fed upThis world is not so kindPeople trap your mindIt's so hard to findSomeone to admire
No ones telling you how to live your lifeBut it's a setup until you're fed upIt's no good when you're misunderstoodBut why should I care?What the world thinks of meWon't let a strangerGive me a social disease
From her perspective it seems like she is talking as a famous person and people only know her public persona and automatically assume certain things about her. For me what the song is saying is that the world puts a lot of demands on people and how it expects people to behave. She is saying I don’t want your social disease, this idea that everyone has to be a certain way. That what everyone is saying to you or in the media is a bunch of lies. People trap your mind, it’s a set up until you’re fed up. No one’s telling you how to live your life, but it’s a set up. No one is going to tell you how to live your life one way or the other, good or bad. It’s a setup – meaning it is all set up that you have to live your life in a certain way because that is how it is done, how everyone else does it. People trap your mind with this ideal and it is hard to find someone who is not in that trap, not living the lie. Once you are fed up, you stop living your life according to that ideal and then it all goes to shit. You are misunderstood and the damage is done. It is an illusion but you don’t know it until you have gone through it and out the other side. It is about standing up and saying that you are living your life on your own terms and you won’t let anyone give you that social disease of having to live your life in that certain way. Once you realize the illusion you can see that that life is now dead and you are moving on to another life – closer to the light/sky.
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